Archive for October, 2009

Insurance is Officially Back Up

October 30, 2009

And not a fucking moment too soon. I have $2500 worth of pods that should have been in the mail last week.

The delay means I’ll be on shots from tonight until at least tomorrow when/if the shipment arrives. They’ve been holding it since Monday, likely waiting for the fucking payment to process. Not looking forward to a whole weekend of shots, so let’s hope the shipment arrives tomorrow, shall we?

Two Girls -UPDATED

October 29, 2009

A first pass at video creation with Windows Movie Maker. Cinematic art it ain’t, but it looks like if you can navigate PowerPoint 7, you can navigate Movie Maker. This is a pretty hack job I did in a few hours. I’ll be interested to see how I can improve things as I figure out what the hell I’m doing. Some of the transitions are still running a little fast.

Video is based on the unpublished short, Two Girls (I wanted to start with a story I didn’t mind messing up). View below or go directly to my my YouTube channel.

Website address at the end is still, obviously, not live, but I’ve started adding it to things in anticipation of the day.

I’m still not sure if giving me these sorts of tools is a good idea or not…

First, they come for…

October 27, 2009

“I was Jewish. There was no doubt in my mind (what would happen). I left in 34. Hilter had taken over in 33. A girl… and a physicist… and Jewish. Well, that’s a combination that had no chance! (laughs) That was clear.”

-Hilde Levi, refugee physicist from Nazi Germany (from here)

The Power of Books

October 27, 2009

(more here)

Mantisland

October 27, 2009


You know you want to check out the rest….

Exquisite photos. I may be ordering some prints (now that I may no longer be dirt desperate uninsured poor!) if I can figure out how.

Light At the End of the Tunnel

October 27, 2009

There appears to be some light at the end of the health insurance tunnel, which is good cause today was the day I was going to drop $1154 on health care premiums through Sinclair.

I was able to place my pod order without a problem (!! really !!), and tho our account still shows up as “inactive,” I’m told that doctors are taking and processing the claims, which will be back up to date by the time anything we do this week actually gets processed, so at least we don’t have to pay out of pocket at the hospital or get turned away.

Still paying out of pocket for prescriptions, but that wasn’t my urgent concern. The terror and sleepless nights were in trying to figure out how to come up with $1100 for my pump supplies and $3,000 for J’s twice-yearly post-cancer scan (which he was due to have last week).

We are both a lot less hysterical now, and should hopefully be sleeping a lot better. Man, what a nightmare. It’s not quite over, but it’s a fuck of a lot less urgent. It’s like the difference between wondering how you’ll survive and just wondering how many nights a week you’ll be eating ramen.

Oh, there was some other good news today, too.

As J said, “IT’S LIKE CHRISTMAS!”

Women in the Fight

October 26, 2009

Images of Women in WWII.

(via Elizabeth Bear)

The Autumn Feast!

October 25, 2009

Full set here. Here’s what we cooked:

Ranch Style Chicken

Sweet-Roasted Rosemary Acorn Squash Wedges
Spicy Pumpkin Soup

Maple syrup substitute for the pumpkin soup and acorn squash consisted of Splenda mixed with no-carb maple “syrup” substitute. Honey called for in the ranch style chicken was substituted with no-carb maple “syrup” (and turned out very well!).

Booklife

October 24, 2009

So, I’m, like, a writer fighting to get my first book into stores. At least into Kindles? Published would be great. It’s been languishing, but hopefully that’ll change soonish.

Anyway, I’m also an introvert. I write books. I don’t market them. I’m an introvert by nature… it’s one of the reasons I became a writer. One of the toughest things for introverted writers to negotiate has always been the marketing of their books, and with the rise of ever more “social” and viral ways to market books, the landscape has gotten tougher to manage. Most of the time, I feel little overwhelmed.

I’m often caught in this weird place where people tell me I share too much, or too little, or don’t engage enough, or engage too much. And you know, all I want to do is write. I can write here or plunk away in cool silence in this big 1890s house, but at some point, if you want anybody to read anything you write, you need to crawl out of the house and back into the world.

Booklife came to me at just the right time. I’d sold a book, had it get caught in limbo, and was happily cocooning in my real life. Trouble is there are two big parts to The Writing Life. There’s the writing, and there’s the marketing. There’s the interacting with the world, and there’s creating worlds. Today, it often feels like I can do one or the other but not both at once. And… well, let’s say that interacting with the world makes me tired. I’m in marketing at the day job, and that means people and politics and social media all day. It’s the last thing I want to do when I come home.

I enjoyed Booklife because I got to see how another writer negotiated the writing vs. marketing portions of life. Because let me tell you – it often feels like they’re directly opposing forces. He gives some great strategies on how to move from writing to marketing mode and leverage social media tools. Yes, the tools he talks about may be obsolete soon, but the rules of social media (thus far) are pretty portable across mediums.

For me, it was the right book at the right time. How do you interact with the world without exhausting yourself? How do you withdraw enough that you can be creative but not lose momentum with your social media audience? It’s a tough negotiation that I’m right smack in the middle of right now, and seeing how VanderMeer is negotiating his own booklife was… comforting? I want to know it can be done. That I can build a writing career and still have some part of my life that’s still mine. I need enough left to create something.

Because I’ve spent a year being battered around by publishing woes, and I’m far too young and unpublished to become a bitter midlister just yet.

The Irrational Politics of Web 2.0

October 24, 2009

ME: One of the folks I know is dating one of my exes! And she unfriended me on LJ!

J: Well, yanno, that’s what happens when you start dating someone. You have to unfriend all their exes on the LJ, honey. It’s, like, a rule or something.

ME: But!

J: It’s a RULE.

ME: But!!!

J: When was the last time you talked to this person?

ME: Well… um. I haven’t been going to cons, really, which is where everyone is… and, um, OK, I don’t comment much on the blogs anymore, and um…. I sort of dropped off the face of the writing earth last year. But!! I do LIKE her!! Now she will NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN.

J: I think you will be OK.

ME: So I guess I shouldn’t friend her on Facebook?

J: Probably not.

This is the trouble with web 2.0. Sometimes it makes you feel just like you did in high school, and the feelings are just as ridiculously irrational.

Particularly because I’m terribly happy for both of them.